Journeyer, as most of you know, Christmas
is my most favorite time of year.
I love almost everything about the season:
The lights…
The spirit of giving and that beautiful
thing that is the gift of
receiving…
The wonderful smells that waft through my
house be they during my holiday baking days, the ham cooking on our family’s
traditional Christmas Eve day gathering, or the scent of the turkey roasting
away on Christmas Day…
One of my most favorite parts of the
holiday is the tree, which gives me
much pleasure long after the festivities are done.
Warren and
I began cutting the Christmas tree, always the day after Thanksgiving, from our
farm and carried on the tradition of with our children until we’d depleted our
suitably-sized supply.
This year
we visited a new tree farm that sported the most magnificently pruned and
maintained specimens!
We set it
up, decorated it, and whereas I usually have forgotten to fill the stand with
water for a day or two, I had my natural decoration drinking its fill within
hours.
Two days
later I noticed piles of needles under the tree but chalked it up to the cats
or greenery that was compromised in transit.
The pile
appeared to be growing each day, and then as I sat watching a Christmas movie Friday
night, I kept hearing a CHT, CHT, CHT,
sound, like that of a mouse in a cupboard or a cat clawing at paper.
And then I
realized what I was hearing: My tree was raining needles!
Clearly,
this tree wasn’t going to make it into January, maybe not even until Christmas
Day!
I removed
the few wrapped gifts and shook out the pine from their bows Saturday morning, shook
out the skirt, swept the floor, and felt a great sense of sadness settle into
my bones…
Those
twinkling lights are one of the things that helps me through the dark winter
days and helps stay the doldrums…
I phoned
the company and asked them about my situation; they replied that I likely had
selected a variety that doesn’t last long and they would gladly replace the
tree.
I don’t
have time to tear down one tree, spend half a day selecting/cutting/trimming another…
The
comments fellow writers made on my Hay House book proposal need attention…
THE BOOK
PROPOSAL DEADLINE IS IN EIGHT DAYS!
Company is
coming and the house is a disaster… (no slight exaggeration…I’ll spare you the
photos…)
On and on
I fretted, felt sorrow, and chastised myself for my melancholy…
But here’s
what I knew: I always say, “If people are coming to see my house, then they
need to say so and may have to plan that visit around a cleaning schedule.” It
can wait…
While the
dying art would give me a week of frustration, the replacement would provide me
many more days of joy.
Keeping
house is a community effort and Warren and my children always help out.
I had
seven days to finish the final fine points of the book proposal, and though I
am optimistic that I have a great book idea, one that fits beautifully into Hay
House’s repertoire, there were many other fine writers and creative thinkers at
that conference, which means the final decision is out of my hands.
My
happiness, however, is always within my reach, heck, it is mine for the taking!
I could do
all these things…maybe not quite like I’d envisioned, in the orderly, Pollyanna
fashion I’d hoped for, but I could definitely accomplish these things in some
adaptable form.
And, as a
bonus, though Fave couldn’t be here during the first event, he could
participate in the second!
Oh, joys of joys, he must have been thinking!
Yesterday
morning, Warren and Fave, and I set out with our trunk and barren limbs project
strapped to the top of our minivan...
after we removed the ornaments
after we removed the lights...
my boys removing the dead tree...
...and went in search of the next perfect tree…
The family joke is how we always come full circle, back to the first one picked, and how long Mama can wander looking for just the right one…
The jokes
prevail…
Memories,
Journeyer, that’s what each of those moments is: Memories.
One of my
fondest has recollections is the year our young cherubs asked us if they could
have trees in their bedrooms. From our land, we found three young saplings that
were just the right size, and as we descended the hilltop on our four-wheelers,
my little cherubs rode with their trees held high overhead, as if each was a
prized trophy!
Now we
have a new memory…
Gumdrop…
Warren and
Fave stumbled upon this stubby little fellow that they said looks like the
candy.
We almost
brought him home, too, but feared we’d never get him through the door!
We laughed
so hard, and with each chortle I felt the stress and tension of That which isn’t going right melt away…
We went on
to find several other trees that were serious contenders for The Replacement,
including a tree nicknamed Ta-Da! because
that’s what I declared when we stumbled upon her…
A few of
my other favorite holiday happenings is watching movies like Miracle on 34th
Street, A Christmas Carol, the original Frosty the Snowman is Coming to Town,
and those cheesy Hallmark movies, along with any and all Good Tidings themed
shows…
I keep the
radio tuned to the Christmas station, and keep several copies of ‘Twas the
Night Before Christmas scattered around my home…
This one
comes with its own fond recollection: My mad-dash around Raleigh one Christmas
Eve day, searching for this book for my step-mother, who longed for my father
to read it to all of the grandchildren who’d descended upon them for the
holiday…
I presented
my find with this little note written on the inside cover:
“Twas the night before Christmas, and all
through the house, the children were bustling, not quiet as a mouse;
"When what to my wondering ears I should hear—‘Grandpa
and I need a story of cheer! We’ll read it tonite to all of our dears; could
you find it Annah?, and bring it back here?’”
"As she dashed through Raleigh, not one was in
sight, but an African American version, and at $14.95 it just wasn’t right…
"When what to her wondering eyes should
appear, but a Barnes & Noble, so full of Christmas cheer;
"And on a small table hidden from sight, she
found the treasure which would give them pleasure.
"And I heard her exclaim as she dashed from their
sight—Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!”
Cheesy,
right? All I can say in my defense is that it was 1997; I was young, rushed,
and sleep-deprived!
Happy
happens, Journeyer, sometimes when we least expect it.
The Five
Facets Philosophy includes the simple truth that there is always some measure
of joy in every life experience, it might seem microscopic, but it is there,
twinkling in the midst of darkness and daylight…
Gumdrop might
not have saved Christmas, we ended up choosing Ta-Ta-Ta-TA-DA!, but he has landed himself a starring role in my
own Visions of Sugarplums film that my family will include in their holiday
tales for many years to come…
What about
you, Journeyer? What moments brought you a moment of joy, warmth, or laughter
during the past week? Share them hear and help spread a little holiday cheer!
Until next
time, yours in hope, healing, and laughter,
~AE
OH!, Gosh,
I almost forgot!! I delivered one more #BestTeachersGifts basket this past
week! The principal was one of several whose enthusiasm for this project
bubbled over. And, get this, Journeyer, the school has a theme they call “Filling
someone’s bucket.” It’s all about showing kindness toward those around you. It’s
like their daily endeavor is cuddled right up to this pay-it-forward giveaway
endeavor! I’ll be writing an entire post once all of the schools have made
their presentations and this project is officially closed, but until then,
enjoy this photo of the teacher and I in front of their theme’s wall art!
I received
a package of letters from the Florence, SC class whose teacher received a
basket of supplies.
AND, not
only did I participate in a great discussion with the ladies of the Grief
Diaries Show, I received this tasty thank you from them!
AND…(Could all
of this possibly happened in the past week?) Warren, Fave, Big Guy and I
rounded out yesterday by going to the movie to see the new Hobbit movie. We
split up for dinner because Warren and Fave wanted Chinese, while Big Guy and I
wanted something a little lighter.
My
youngest and I ate at Panera Bread where I had one of the best cups of soup I’ve
ever set my mouth on! Check out this acorn squash soup…yummmmmm…
Warren
brought me back a fortune cookie that read: “Believe it can be done.”
These
events are all among the visions I have for the work I’m doing with The Five
Facets…so blessed to see my dreams coming true! J
I believe
all right! And now I must wrap up this post and get back to that book proposal.
Wish me luck, Journeyer!!
Elizabeth,
ReplyDeleteI just ordered your book. Thank you for commenting on my blog. As you know have companions in grief is comforting. I am looking forward to reading Digging for Light.
Namste
Simmer Dougherty
Agoodmourning.blogspot.com
Simmer,
DeleteI am honored to have you join me and excited to have another Journeyer on the road to healing! Thank you for your kind words and for ordering my book; may you find some measure of healing within its pages...
Most of all, thanks for being a neighbor in grief and an ally in healing...your story is sure to touch another in need...
All my best for a memorable New Year!
Yours in hope, healing, and happiness,
~Annah Elizabeth
ps... If you're so moved, I invite you to share your thoughts and reflections in an Amazon review of Digging for the Light,,, Namaste...