You know
how it is when company comes to town, Journeyers?
Life gets
busier and better and crazier and it’s nice to see them come, but it’s also
nice to see them go?
I know this
woman who begins counting down the days ‘til her children go back to school,
the second she leaves to bring them home for break.
But unlike
me, she’s sad and angst-ridden that they’ll be gone much too soon.
Me?
I’m all for
spending as much time as I can with them when they’re home, and then waving
them off joyfully.
That’s the
part that’s hard for me right now, that I don’t have as much time when they are
visiting as I’d like.
They are much
like I am, making home wherever they are, so even though they are home, they
want to consider themselves visitors.
With a few
Mommy/Daddy perks thrown in now-and-again, like free food and laundry.
Remember
that, Journeyers, the age of college budgets and knowing everything and wanting
your parents help but not wanting it, too?
Yeah. That.
But I’m
growing into it, Mamas and Papas, I’m settling in to this new life with young
adults.
So, on top
of all of That, the
emotional risings that surfaced during their visits, and the effort of the
very hard work Warren and I have been doing, I’m downright wrung out.
I’ve been
averaging about five-and-a-half hours of sleep a night for the past three
weeks.
And I need
my rest, Journeyers.
It’s so
easy to get caught up in the day-to-day drudgery of Life and Sadness and Activity
and Recovery, to forget to honor the touchstones that are our respite, our revitalization,
our happiness.
If it weren’t
for the few pictures I took this week, I might not have been able to pinpoint any
of this week’s Moments.
That’s one
of the greatest tools we have, Journeyers, documentation.
Taking
photos or writing in a journal, for then we can look back and say, Okay, yes, I did feel joy. The madness is
only a part of me. It does not define
me or my life.
It would
have been so easy to wallow in the darkness of my failures, but I want more.
I want to
grow and learn from those mistakes and to move forward by modeling something different
for my family, for my neighbors, for myself.
Happiness
is a part of our healing, Friends.
There’s magic
in a simple Moment.
Here are a
few of those fleeting instances that helped cure what ailed me this week.
I
spotted this little pine cone while walking the dog.
Do you see that?!
It landed upright and intact!
It reminded
me of our human ability to get back up on our feet after trauma rips us loose
from our own happy branches.
Movement is
what keeps us from getting stuck in whatever hard place we are in, and so I relocated
this beautiful specimen.
I’m
always amazed how rock walls weather so many storms, and I couldn’t think of a
better place to position this little guy than onto the ledge of this retainer
wall I notice every time I take myself or the dog for a walk.
Fave’s
girlfriend’s mom brought me this bouquet of flowers when she came to visit.
Can
you believe they still look like this on the eighth day?!
I’m greeted
each morning to more color and a little more fragrance.
I returned
from running errands to find Big Guy standing guard over something in the front
yard.
He’d
decided to take his pet out for a little stroll, along with some fresh air and
sunshine.
Warren is
on the road, helping Fave with a training clinic, so Most Fave (aka Big Guy)
and Beauty and I were on our own for the weekend.
My youngest
loves games of all kinds, so the three of us left at home spent time soaking up
a little Vitamin D and playing a competitive game of Bocce ball.
Today is
another special day, Journeyers.
You see, me
and Beauty and Big Guy are on the road, too.
Making the
four-plus-hour trek, taking our big girl back to college.
I'm
so happy for all of us!
She
gets to continue on her journey of self discovery and learning about the world
and herself and everything that comes with growing up and being a grownup.
Do you see
what’s in the top left corner of the photo above?
It’s a cat
carrier.
With a
three-month-old kitty inside, the “cutest, most adorable and lovable kitten”
Beauty’s ever laid eyes on.
A feline
she insisted on buying despite Warren’s and my misgivings.
But here’s
the beautiful thing: we can question and impart knowledge and then set firm
boundaries for ourselves and our home.
And I can
smile because I know how it feels to be nineteen and capable of “living all on
my own” (without utility bills, rent, insurance, taxes…) and being a big girl
and not needing my parents and being FREEEEEEEE!
And I can
shake my head and grin because now I’m getting a glimpse of some troubles I
gave my own parents.
And when my
girl’s away at college, I don’t have to watch it all unfold and be tempted to act
like a parent.
I can focus
on me, and simply being there for her as a guide, when she comes to me for help.
And I can
work on trusting that I’ve given all of them my very best.
As I say
that, one of my many Mama Mantras comes to mind, “Every day we’re doing the
best that we can. Some days that best is better than others.”
I’m working
on accepting that, Journeyers. Some days my best was absolutely AMAZING, SPOT
ON, and DAMN NEAR SUPER-HERO-ISH.
And then
there were the days that I failed, and those times when I did so epically and miserably.
I can’t
change any of it, but I can keep on keeping on, being honest and open and
learning and growing and loving the best way I know how.
And I can
enjoy watching my children as their lives unfold before their very own eyes,
too.
Free! I’m sure that’s what my
newly-turned nineteen-year-old is thinking, Journeyers. I’m FREE!!!
I’m kind of
feeling a little bit of that, too.
And who
knows, if my leaping ability were as good
as Glennon Melton’s,
you might see me flying through the air, too…
What about you? What recent Moments
either took your breath away or gave it back to you? Share a little of your
magic here!
Hugs and
healing, Journeyers…









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